Lost But Not Afraid A Guest Post By Writer Keisha Page


Perils of a Mom Writer, Time Management / Thursday, December 11th, 2014

 

Author Keisha Page
Author Keisha Page

Something happens to a woman when she turns forty. I’m sure things happen to men, too, but since I’m not a man I can’t really speak to that. Turning forty didn’t freak me out or send me into this existential crisis that I halfway expected. I had heard things, you see.

I had been working for a few years as a freelance writer, but unable to really justify the time spent writing, because, in the end, it might not make me any money. I felt like I needed to be spending my efforts either on earning a paycheck or with my family. Freelancing is a fickle business, and it’s either feast or famine. During the famine times, I was with my family a lot. During a feast time, they might not see me, other than for twenty minutes at dinner, for days.

When forty came it hit not like a freight train, but rather like those slow boats you see paddling across still lakes at fancy resort hotels. I decided I should make a commitment to running a lot more, and that maybe I should go ahead and quit this smoking nonsense. I thought those were reasonable responses to turning forty, although I was still waiting for that crisis everyone had told me to expect. So I started running more, although my ankles hated me for it, and I quit smoking, although my chocolate intake went way up. Which led to more running.

And then one day I woke up. I don’t mean woke up in the lazy Saturday sense, but woke up in the Oh-no-I-didn’t-hear-the-alarm-go-off-and-now-I’m-going-to-be-late-for-work sense. I realized, in that moment, that everything I had been doing for the last few years had been preparing me for the one thing that I had wanted to do, but had put off doing, for the multitude of reasons that women put off doing things. It was time for me to be a writer.

It was time for me to get off my rear end, and start writing. Yes, technically I was writing for a living, but I have stories to tell. These characters live in my head and some days, they just won’t shut up! And I knew, that morning, that if I didn’t start writing today, that I was going to regret it for the rest of my life. And since I had recently quit smoking, that life was going to be a good bit longer.

Why do I write?

So I started writing. I looked for other writerly people, and found 10 Minute Novelists. I felt like I had found my tribe. They understood, they knew what I was going through. And the idea of writing for ten minutes a day was thrilling to me! Even as a busy mom who worked full time, I knew I could find TEN ENTIRE MINUTES!

And so I did. It’s taken me a bit to get started. Waking up that morning left me feeling like I had just jumped off a cliff and was falling into some great unknown. It was unfamiliar territory, to be sure. I felt lost, but not afraid. In fact, I felt like, even though I was lost, I was where I was supposed to be.

I was writing.

2 Replies to “Lost But Not Afraid A Guest Post By Writer Keisha Page”

  1. It is always wonderful to hear how other people find the courage, time, stamina and determination to write. That helps motivate me on the days when I don’t want to get up early or when I open my e-mail to a rejection letter or just can’t find the write word to make the sentence sing. Thank you for sharing your story.

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